lament V

I have sinned;
I know I have done wrong
If reality were not real,
I would not dread my consequence.
I place my hope in the Lord.

My God, are reactions consequences?
If they are not, I despair to think of what you have in store.
I need You to desire me to rise again.
If you desire me to rise,
How then can you punish?
I place my hope in the Lord.

This turmoil burns my living bones,
And my heart spills over with coal.
My love which was once so strong
Has, in a moment of weakness, fallen.
If I humble myself, how high will I be exalted?
Can I find Your peace here - on the streets of sinners?
Should I seek peace and joy
If I have wrought destruction?
I place my hope in the Lord.

Those who have ears, let them hear!
God is almighty and just!
What the fallen have done, God is right in judgement!

Those who have eyes, let them see!
My shame that I bring to my father,
Is shame I refused to see.
Oh Lord, Your child, who I am, do not despise.
Redeem.
I place my hope in the Lord.

To seek out the endless days I am to receive
Brings joy to the broken heart.
To one day stand before the almighty,
My heart yearns.
May I Lord, rest here in eternal peace.
May I Lord, rest in You.
Amen.